Church

two posts one night

thinking about church lately...I went to Catholic church until I got confirmed, then I kind of stopped going forever.

Night time

Just bought these 8B pencils, and LOVING them

Nostalgia and Adulthood

Learning how to draw myself again:

Another picture-less comic about serious stuff.

P.S. Chuck, I couldn't do this without you. Thank you for being amazing.

And more memories:

This weekend, in the magical Christmas house that my mom and my sister created, I experienced some really intense nostalgia. Memories haven't come flooding back to me like that in a really really really long time. The house my mom lives in is the house we grew up in, she's lived there for 20 years now. It's changed a lot but so much is still the same.

These 3 particular memories are:

top: there was this rusty pipe sticking out of a cement block near our driveway, and my sister and I would always put stuff in it, like rocks and grass and water and pinecones

middle: I have a really distinct memory of playing in our dirt driveway, poking at anthills with a stick, while the sun was setting, in the summertime

bottom: I once snuck out of my bedroom window at night. Looking at our house from that angle made it suddenly feel like a stranger's house. I felt really alone and separate from it.

Memories

I've been writing a lot recently about my childhood memories...it's weird how when you try really hard to remember things they don't come, but then you remember one thing and a ton of stuff comes flooding back...I'm going to try to do one of these at least once a week.

I'm really trying to figure out how to make a schedule for myself and make myself do work. Every time I sit down to draw I feel so much better. I've just been a big ball of tense for the past week. Plus I'm waiting for the Xeric letter...maybe it comes today....aaagh